yeah im free`!

2005-08-15T01:38:00.000-07:00

am having a stupid test now.. 1st test.. i cant even write lo..
im scared of coms....but dere're e ricebowl for me.....4ever!!!!
wahaha. i mis alot of things too. i mis bowling, pool, sentosa, chers, frens and v8 baked rice, cookies & cream ice-cream, oreo cheese cake, I MISS TAKING NEO PRINTS WHEN IM A PHOTO FREAK IN E PAST..............

2005-08-08T09:53:00.000-07:00

woah its been nearly 2 full mths since i've blg. ok la. no surprise.
suddenly...dese few weeks felt a very urgent calling for me to blg. dunno y. bnut i always ended up nv. tt bldy com is forever bldy slow n old.. n un-reactive. but tonight i jus hv to blg.

went to catch da display of fireworks again.... 12 mid night. e 3rd time this yr. 1st tum was during a NDP rehersal.. den is last sat. 1st of fireworks festival,sg. den this.tonight. dere;s more tml. mm i'ma freak for fireworks. i love fireworks more den anyth in e world.... well, it used to be,. 'cuz whenever i do get 2 watch... i wil like... hmmm wahh..OOo.. cool...so happy n contented n blissful. but lately, tis yr i don feel e same. i don feel anyth tonight. WHY?

i lost that realli magnificent feelin for it....n somethings kept me....hmmm how shld i put it.. well, e past kept haunting me. nth scary but jus.... unforgetable. its like a particular scene kept rewinding n playin n so forth in my head. wich i cant get rid of it. i've forgotten him..hv i? yes i'm sure. but den y?

i seeemed to lost my smile n feelings too. i nv had tt rushing of hearbeat, skippin a beat, blushing kinda feelin anymore. or mb i made myself refused to do tt...maybe. i duno. do i look or become a werid person now?
mm all i noe is tt...my mum says im 'older' den before. older as in.....
'cang lao' oh my god. bcuz of sch work. its stressfullla..cuz it seems i hvn been tt creative enuff... but i timk i used 2 be MORE...in e past. Y?

cuz.. back den i hvn had any worries...criteria...competitiono...blah blah.but nah,,i nv meant 2 mk it sound so serious. i nid 2 realx haha. but being into this course... i began 2 reliased that i love slping too. n tt if im being deprievd of it..i'll whine!!>>....sadz. haha.

also...very sorry tt i've neglect ma frens. unless dose of u'all..gt hmmhmm. ur cruddles cruddles.

misses: mis u guys al e time..but hvn had e energy 2 call u guys out..
i am realli old... tires easily. oh bullshit.haha.

i realli reralli mis da days wehn we bowl.....wend n i.. scoring so close 2 each other...wif janet 4ever eating n hlping 2 tapao..bandito... wif her 4ever droppin e ball... its swinging..eball.. haha. mis dem like crazy.
1st 2 yrs of ma sec life.... my shopaholic frens..... u 2....muackx.sry la nv contact.

ah xiang aka cabbage, bro... nice chap. jia you. u can draw haha. n if u're reading tis...help me wif html n flash.haha

mmm sarah....mb e reason im 'lazy' 2 contact u..is tt... u reminds me of a.t...... yes. both my old frens.but within dese 6yrs....sooo many things hv happened... n ya.. gald i knew u guys.

shanna..goth emo..jkjk. remb ur dreams.

me: n for myself....... a long holiday at hk....tt's enuf. an escape of reality once in a while...n my mental motivation....n noe-ing to cherich someone...
but... like i said...... my heart grew numb. sryz. im touched but........

tink outta box?

2005-06-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

its been 2 full weeks. mmmmmmmmmmm im sort of a bit stressed la.but im enjoying evry bit of it. except dose thousands of stairs. ok la.e fd..gettting better. no, or slhd i say i've tried e correct fd. but i guess dere's alot more for me to improve... like my el. spoekn el and writing skills. i mux read more. but eh lecturer no tum lo. mmmmmmm alot of assignments n projects. mmmm software tough 2 learn.. cuz im a com idiot. ;[ hehe but if i hv e say die attitude den its nt me liaoz. leiz. mmmm proper el,ya hehe. mm yeah some1's treating me dinner. yummy. am lookin forward to it.
btw LOL.. wend when r u gonna acc me go club streeet.,...
thanks LAOOOO eng hua fer lending me dose color pencils..hehe

LOL. im even more broke den e past. toooo mani things to buy. tooooo ex.

U belonG to the SKY.....U belong to everyone....

2005-05-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

tml orientation liaoz.some frens r off tml....1st day of poly.don mis me ah.haha. sth happy happen to day. happy for tt sth . happy day. mm when it'll be mine? hehe someone out dere's at TTTTTTTTTTT..........do ya tink if he'll mis me or go oooooo ahhh gagagagugu over da girls dere?haha. nite.

sueyz.sueyz.goddammm it.bleahcxz.

2005-05-21T08:56:00.000-07:00

sryz shanna hv to remind u.cuz i lost 50bucks. bleahcz.
3.5.9 shanna.

haiz.its a fun nite sia..but my blur-ness ruined it.if tt's one th one wish tt is to be MORE ALERT JUS CARELESS N LESS FORGETFUL. grrrrrr.
went 2 lip teng's hse for steamboat gathering...on e way stop by a bench downstairs. 2 try 2 dry n wipe away all tt raindrop.s boo.its raining. so i guess shld hv left it dere..
my new puma miniature bag. ;[so sad sia.its cheap la...but LOL. my ez-link.. my new key chain... mickey brought at esplande... bo boo.ttt's nt cheap.n my money!.lucky i dint brought my wallet out though. n im so soo lucky tt i dint keep my hp,its in my pocket. pheW!,.hai treat it as po chai xiao zai/.haiz.mum gonna nag like hell.cuz my keys duno y sia...nt cheap 2 duplicate.grrrrrr!..!>.,anyway it was fun n delicious. apart frm some snickering///.....gugugaga. haiz.

sueyz.sueyz.goddammm it.bleahcxz.

2005-05-21T08:55:00.000-07:00

2005-05-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

Oh ya shanna 359.thanks hehe.thanks for reminding me to remind u.keke.

A gentle reminder to shanna. haha

2005-05-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

mm last nite i had a tok i gt diff viewings....regarding sth.well.yes the phrase is indeed logically true n i solely believe in it.tt is
ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY.
so i've made up my mind abt sth.i wanna an end.a complete stop.i musnt dong yao my faith my word abt sth. yes u're rite.
"musnt use my love for him to let him hurt me."
thnks.for sharing.we're sort of in da same boat at some pt of time....in e past.
cruel yet chi qing fren. haha duno if u mite see me type out all this anot.
u're quite nice2chat wif as a fren. but mm but sometimes lei.....bei ba ta kan de ze me hao.. ok ma?. mm i hope u'd find some1u like out dere. same goes for ***.;] alot of mei nu ritez...haha tink i duno wor...haha. my mum says e 1 ...e guy for life... ur hub is impt den any other fren. mm mb i cant see it nw ba. well i do find friends worth e frens-2-keep....n tt's wat i nid. as for true relationships i stil gt lots 2 learn. i wuld 1 a lasting relationship too. but i;ve decided i nv want 2 live in e past AGAIN. i finally noe wat i dont 1. tt is 2 be back again wif u.even if u want it or nt. thanks for respecting my decision. ;]went u leave this place...i can promise i wont shed my tears in front of u okies. but aft u leave..... i wil..of cuz be sad sti..cuz u r afterall some1 i cared for..some1 i liked alot alot...in e past. ;];] xi wang ni dui wo zhi shi dan chun de you yi hao ma.

2day went 2 collect o'lvl cert wif shanna.den went 2 bugis gt sth i nid.went 2 orc.Fareast. shanna brought a pair of 'aladdin shorts' its kinda special. okies den i brought lacy socks.btu lo gt holes sia????!!!!!!fish!!!. mm den at nite wen 2 makan DA CHAN. mum n dad 25th anniv. hehe yummy crab!fest.very famous de. at ang mo kio.... crab king? haha it sure it. dude..........im so full.but i hvn had enuff................

Sayonara boss.... xie xie ni

2005-05-19T04:36:00.000-07:00

yeapy.im so happy.monday's my lassst day of work. thnks boss.. ;]for e contacts...n everyth...lucnhes tea breaks...cute lil daughter ya hv. i can enjoy da lil days left be4 sch starts... relax chil.....shop....n i hvn call for my doc appt.shitz.

TueS: sentosa... thnks jo, for organising...but lol it rained. haha da best part was i dint became a roasted pig n it was goddam cold...brbrbrrrrrrr outta of e waters. i jus culdnt resist da waters///u noe..ahem. but heck. hehe nth happen, realli.hehe mmm guys jus luved 2 be buried? went dere 2 slp? swim? our nt so successful beach volley ball....wich later <>> """remiinisicing"" our childhood teengae dose days.. mm brought a lil 'souvenir'.. a pair of straw slippers.. cheap. ate 3scopps of new zealand ice-cream.........snap lots of shots...mm but duno hw 2 get dem.... overall it was fun. a fren knew a cutie but duno gt contact anot sia. cutie is 17 toooo. i was exhausted sia...went 2 bed after i drew something on my sketchbk.

Wed: wat did i do huh?ytd.......i gt short-term memory sia. die. oh ya went 2 visit my granpa wif mum..... den meet up wif ah wend.... shop. wanna watch amityville horror but haiyo..1st 2 rows? nah..... so.. we ate LJS brought her dad's bday present... watch soem stuff....i was msg-ing ytd... e whole day for e 1st time recently.... mmm back 2 frens??????? ;] but lol we didnt started as frens. aiyah duno hw 2 say sia.

guys can anybodi tell me where can i find everlast merchandise... yucky i nv spot any lei. i need new bags. for skool. ']][]][][][][][][][][][][][][]['

wat i did today huh/////.......
wed: last nite i was toking 2 someoone... a very old old fren.....some1 whom is very special but nt anymore... well anyway.. we chatted from abt aft mid-night 2 3plus./ dude.2day FOR THE 1ST TUM IN MY LIFE I WOKE AT 12.30?!. haha. den went 2 accompy some1 2 collect his spects... collect my contacts... make my new spects. :]/\yeah./\keke. went 2 ikea.... den back hm.... makan n here i am blogging. listening lao shu ai da mi........ a very mushy song.. nt bad la.
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..........................................................to be cont.
love.....once its gone...its gone right?
true love....tey say..if it realli is... it went come back? realli?
should i believe? once again? nah...dont tink too much.
we live in totally diff worlds......is it possible?
u want me to wait?2yrs?in e past i will... w/o thinking..but nw.................
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mm my heart felt sth when i c u... when u 2 talked. y huh? but nah... lucky i dint fall hard for u....dere r some things........................tt realli ...mm hw sholud i say.. well i mind okies. i dont tink ya fall hard for me too. thanks for e things u gave me.. :] frens zui hao ;] ][everlasting........
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------dont treat me too nice.
u're crude. u're str forward./
we hv diff expectations n dreams.
feelings can be nurture but it cant be forced.
nice guy/
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2005-05-13T07:39:00.000-07:00

finally.....i'm counting to my days..of sayin sayonara 2 my job.4mths job. first job tt i nv quit mid way.....but its sort of making me go crazy lately. i gt kinda tooo stressed up wif my part time job my family n my hse my room almost evryth evrybodi. its like i'm having an emotional beakdown. i can jus burst out anytime....but nt in e day. i bear it thru.... at nite mum's nagging.....sis kinda fished!sia. n aiya nth's gg rite foe me jiu dui le, i brk down twice. mood swings n watz next? i scream at anybodi tt crosses my path at hm. i scowlred at a guy fren too. poor guy. its tum i get a brk. but its a short 1. n oh ya another reason tt adds on. my emotional 'struggle' my thinking to much abt e 2courses. it as nv left my mind til jus a few days ago? i hope i wil be happy....i tink i wil. im nt sure. u see.....when u 'fought so much tried so much been thru so much towards sth u 1. ur goal.. den onl 2 noe u r fighting so much another sth . its like fighting for orange n e end th is u gt an apple instead, i dunno wat im writing. i duno whether u gt e pt anot.. for I OFTEN GT MISUNDERSTOODED TT I MITE 1 DAY JUS FREAKED OUT N GO CRzy. BUT im nt,this kinda person. ppl said im strong? but im getting weaker.....as it seems.
im toking rubbish but jus let me vent it. i needed my voice to be heard. i jus wanna hv a break.

i feel tt i needed space....i needed air. i feel suffocated. e constant nagging........ok i noe my rm's a mes.s.... my mum's doin a revaqmped around my hse. my god sia. can die. throw abt 80% of 'junk' my precious... well anyway it sure is neater it sure makes her happy but im not, i needed my own corner, i jus wanna sneaked in a comfy chair n read... n surf... n chat.... but whenever i go,,,,,, arghghg some1's 4ever fighting e fone line.... e com.... my bed's nt made.... y here so messy. i jus cant stand it., i cant jus hv a short peaceful moment, i jus feel like getting out of e hse....... live on an island or sth. n i dreaded hvnin 2 work but its RESPONSIBLITY. i wanna tok more 2 my frens,,,,,but i wil be tired i wil slplate den i wil wake up late den i wil be tired in e day den i wil mk mistakes . im fishing hell blur.haha, i saw a boasting memoery pill being invented soon by us... mb it'll be useful 2 me. grwoing up?....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i dreaded it,

shit die, i tink i gorged on food..my dinner jus now. bcuz i'm in a bad mood i noe its unhealthy.mmm im putting on lots of wtsia, haha sch commerces... bu mei liaoz. bealchz

be a happy kid.

2005-05-01T03:12:00.000-07:00

i guess im relli a weird person. i luv to watch 'ou xiang ju' love dramas... luv stories, fairytales, romatic movies all abt love. for a reason. a fren of mine loves sad stories...., once im too. i wanna crfy my heart out when i watch dem.... when e story makes a sad n down turn. how shld i put it?

mm mb its bcauz i like e happy endings found in fairytales.... luv stories.... i indulge in it. i wil pic all tt in my mind. as if i ralli do believe tt fairytale endings wil happen in reality. i stil believe it does.but nt tt often. tt same fren tt hu isnt so optimistic once said, wang wang wo hui ba shi qing kan de tai jian dan..... fan shi tou yi ding hui you hao jie qu. its true ba. mb i hvn realli tasted life. n hardship. harsh reality. but being optimistic for life is a gd th ma rite? i grew up in a family when all is provided for,,,, well fed haas n im da baby of my family. n i guess parents..my parents shed me frm all da harm n danger. but i do encounter things... n fren's experiences..... background. wo ye ming bai ah,. but mb its bcuz of e upbringing,.... when i faced my ups n downs in my past relationships...... ppl tink im strong... yes i did move on....but...............
i cant realli accept all tt has happen to me. in fact itink i hv a low se;f esteem.. n im nt a confident gurl. wich is impt. i mux hv it. i.m trying to learn 2 be better now. trying..........................
i'm loved but i stil do nt love my self enuff,. but nt tt serious as to say 2 hurt my self. but mm some other things tt seem minor 2 others...but mean sth 4 me. like,.my body image.... rough palms... although its inner beauty tt counts. but haha well mb IM A PERFECTIONIST w/o 100% action AFTER ALL. :???///

Finally.

2005-04-29T09:23:00.000-07:00

Jus came back from hk..hehe frm a 3day hk trip. rush but it was fun,quite ok. except for e food part,. got to seeeeee alot. brought things,,though stil nt enuf sia,. i culd hv brought tonnes if i brought ny own cassssh. brrghghghg. nah but its ok. hehe wow.i luv deir str culture da way tey dress.... so very own style.so daring,. i wuld luv a change..but mmmm my mum wil kick me outta my hse i guess. so...mm guess i better be myself.but im real itchy for a CHANGE. yeah.
so...mm hvn been blging for edges... cuz bump into a cookiespro lately.sianz., now im using a fren's laptop 2 blg.hehe, shiok. mm im so happy. i needed work over this weekend. forge tt im sick.but hey actly i am.i went for my vacation wif a flu..n i came back wif 1 stil. but its getting better. hee. n ya hey guys, i sort of transfer sch n course liaoz, mm wil be gg to sp. sianz hw 2 meet up?so far, but no worries or well actly i do. but hey sg onl gt 1 town, so neet up in town okies. ;[][[

2005-04-16T10:57:00.000-07:00

i fianlly noe wat i wanna blg.
WHEN CAN I STOP ASS-ING MY LIFE OFF?
MY knee strengthing exercises...?MY nexk exercises.
MY DRAWING PRACTICE? MY GUITAR SELF LEARN SESSION?
nobodi can help ONE if ONE nv try nv do.
im getting more n more lazy....as da day gets by.
i jus now hw 2 complain. when can i get a wake up call?
constand reminder n motivation? i hv dreams, goals.
but i only noe hw2 tok. wil i ever realli sit down plan and most impt;y reali do it?
laze around for minutes...45min to wake up? late forever? i used to be a very on time person..... habits change overtime..due to ok lets nt bring up old issues. hai. im a late queen,. lazy queen. n when it comes to $$ issue..its jus as bad. household helping out? wat hv i been contributing lately? almost none. yes i do. by makin all tt mess. my room's desk is in a horribly shape.haha. how? plz. i nid help. i nided some1 to keep me on da right track,btu nobodi can do tt 4ever, u nid 2 be on ur own.
simple to say: im nt independent after all. '}{}{}{}{}'

2005-04-16T10:30:00.000-07:00

SWING GIRLS.yeah swing to da grooove.

its a nice movie. n to tink..i;m so lucky to catch tt. hehe btu i went to woodlands causeway pt to watch sia.hehe. mk me wanna strum...mk me wanna thump thump!.
im so sry nor, i hvn tocuhed me guitar. hai. leave me out ba. im hving alot of body aches lately. neck, shoulder, waist and knee. wat'z next? mum ask me go changi hosp therapy again. lp intro me da T.P hosp.. i no time 2 go,sianz. wat to do? hee. been hving pro wif my work lately. very bad. blurz like crazye. sryz boss. tt y i too ps 2 quit or tk MORE leave. yes. mum fianlly decided. shld be HK> or TW. hehe

2movies to catch:
1. A LOT TO LOVE
2. COACH CARTOR
3. INFECTIONS.

NITE.Z

whelmed? over? emotional?

2005-04-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

proud?
rude?
blunt?
wilful?
extravagant?
money-mindeD?
materialistic?
vain?
tink-u-so-pretty-when-u-arent?
childish?
no confidence?

Get a life okies.xh.

im back. hehe s-h-i-t-z my slogan?

2005-04-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

arghghghghgh.pain.cat fight ROUND 1.]
tables chairs...plz make way.
arghghghghghgh. hahahahahah catfight ROUND 2.
btw da venue? 4g classroom.
ppl plx prepare lots of water... tissue.... n plz mk way.
eh guys.. enuf la. soccer everyday. tok abt hiking ok./
when? 12?30? or 1? i not in s'pore. i cnt. gto cca. got master parade.
hey hey friday afternn gt match lei. cchm? eh gt suai ge's.
haiya cant la. got choir. eh net, pong tang lei. heck lo.
eh eh wucik, cher coming, got 5 a-maths text anot?
Xiao Hweweee, wat is da ans for page 101, Qns 1001?
chan ma li chan, faster lei. eh compo can dont 2nd draft anot?
yeah..hiking. wahh bth liao. choo i wan 100plus.
r u sure da spring water can drink? yeah go bowlin. but in tt dirt clothes?
hey hey lend me read lei..da magz. ah bui?.
shut up la. "by sherr".. eh AN JING LA. haha huh??nt again.geo assignment.
wa lao, a maths got 1 mark?haha. pe.... kaoz late by 30 sec 20 pumping?
mux tuck in?don1 la..so ugly. 3 rounds? no pls..no pls.. weighing tum again. hope i don grew fat. shitz, tis water cooler evrytime no water 1.
hey today wat day? got pizza anot? auntie chicken rice less oil ah.
chao dan? hehe scrambled eggs@veg stall is our 'zhao pai cai' of e yr?hehe
gossipz gossipz gossipz....................................to be cont.

y i didnt blg dese few days when i was soo eager 2 blg past lately?

2005-04-02T08:37:00.000-08:00

haha wend's blg's so cute. xiaoz kez. nice music too.hehe gues she found a EmIlyz blg for me.haha shld i change? mm pre-reserved da puma bag, embossed wif applitique cat design came in le ma? haha im craze hor.but tt's nt tt ex la so stil ok.

mm am i touched? well no feelings but ok.he's 1 person tt can realli 'fu chu' for me?
send me supper right to my doorstep.haha but hey cant compare ok, e other 1's w/o a car. im neutral for now. mm mum n sis like tinkin twice abt gg 2 HK. boo! jus wanna go shopping...but i understand tt hk's somewat similar 2 sg. buzzling city. ppl waes on e move. mum wanna go some where relaxing. taiwan?i luv too, to.btu sis object. haha heck! in da past was no time 2 go..now quarrell over holiday plans. i guess one's travel destination has gt 2 to wif one's reason for travel. diff reasons & wish & desire. hehe
anyway i stil luv 2 visit egypt someday.wanna go WWW too. loveee to go SENTOSA. hehe ah bo jus book da shangri-la hotel n stay der.haha day time play SANDBALLS ah xiang i show u.it wil sure be fun de. n 1 reali wil feel happier n least 5get ur unhappiness tt moment, den lei... beach volleyball. cycling? more sight-seeing. mroe snapshotz. n at nite? mmm wat wuld be da best...2 jus chit chat under e whole sky of stars....... on dose lil man-made islandsz. MY KINDA LIFE. but how many peeps out tt share this too????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

we r stil standing on ur cross rd. we may be happy, for some of us..we can oso be unhappy. we may be boarding on a 'train' tt wil eventually tk us 2 somewhere in life. another period. but wat i noe is tt... no matter wat its stil nice to get around wif ur peeps... no matter wich sch... cuz friendships r not based on merit, studies or dress code. yeah i miss too. lsitenin 2 da blg of a fren of mine.... mm makes me sort of sad....hehe btu ncie melody. melancholy me. nostalgic but i jus wish time wil go back.

ring!!!!alarm clock's gg craze. rush 2 sch? sweat. frens r late. flies?argh. chatting tt lands us all in dm office.? die hw nv do? copy lei. recess...wa kao y so late dismiss, cher!. white shoes became frm black to white n frm white to...hey graffiti trend wor?
bball to soccer to captain ball to floor ball n NOW?FLABBY arms. wat e heck is this.?
bldy hell..chicken rice so lil...ah heng ah..y tok so long. remd les cher can faster anot? no more plzzz...bugis now gt new shop ah? hey baked rice so shiok btu so oily? n no money lei?. quick qucik lao bu scold. 5o'clock liaoz. dinner huh?jus nw eat liaoz. tako for lunch? bubble tea? yaki tori? how abt mos instead? hey gt new machine. go tk lei. mm v'day alone?sports meet yeah..jia you!.fittest class?hiking my god..hu kick sand..n 100 steps? agh cool big black spider? die la knee pain. bowling 2dollars onl?cheap sia. katong laksa?2nd flr..used 2 be kipnap place?hey hu throw me ice n lock me outside? fish sia..y always saw u..y always nv bump into him?.k-box?pool stil so lousy?wahh 3.50per hr.ms food court so chio.eh tml can off anot? u working where? how results? post to where? wat sch? sianz sia. movies any1? aiya 4ever working.gym? so enuthu but tired la.pig,come down lei..help me draw...............................................................................................................................................

2005-03-31T06:30:00.000-08:00

hmmm last nite was too tired to blg. went to SIMPLE PLAN concert last nite. and now i was like my kneess.s....was sort of in pain again....a bit waist pain.. neck 'suan'? haha but it was worth it...least 3/4 of it haha. except for e WAIT.mmm pug jelly was e opening guest.. i tod was hu sia..haha onl noe da last song tt tey sang. ermmm.... anyway a shiok time. mm wanna thanks my 'sponsor;' opps. jk la. hehe reali xei xie.hehe very long nv go concert le. well.. i finally noe how my stamina drop lik3..duno wat le. wahaha da rock concert... made my ear a bit of funny now.. haha wil go away de la. mmmmmm how i wish wend oso went last nite. sure more craze more hot. haha it was la..but wil be MORE. but its ok i believe dere wil be more to come.

mmmmm.. i miss janet. haha very long nv see her. cuz i meet wend recently. though onl ONCE. aiya miss all my frenz.wend plus shanna...yennny....sarah.

mmm to be happy or sad?
i use to tink liking someone is tong ku de. to be liked is xing fu de/
but looks like... mmm either one is xing fu de. i realli dunno. mb i like a bit? mb i like both? or mb i don like any1 at all. i had nice feelings for both. but nt tt kinda strong kinda.. u noe wat im talking abt. anyway let things tk its natural course. heee ok say im a bad gurl. im picky im flirt.? wat ever. im nt xing fu now...but least im happy. :] to be frens wif both.
i gt realli taken aback ya noe. dont do tt nxt tum. haas wil xia dao de. :}{:

MBAFA ruawkkxzs

2005-03-29T07:55:00.000-08:00

i wanna be a designer.
woah. hehe wend n i went to da die i dunow at da full name. ok fashion festival event of e yr.

][mercedes benz asia fashion award][

my god.it was realli a 'wide opener' for me. haha fabulous. fashion works of 6 asian countries, s'pore dint win la. though, but all of TT tt was dispalyed.... tt was 'created' by dem..was my god!lo. mmm saw quan yi feng, n micheelle... frm mediacorp. pretty n so slim unlike behind da cam. mmm realli wanna xie xie wend. hehe if nt i wont hv tis chance to go. deir door gift was kinda cool too. a sort of 'handcuff' belt kinda accessory. oh by da way... da representative frm thaialnd won,. his works was goddam it... i can onl say creative. imgaine... bags arent bags anymore. bags ..jus a simple one..on e preface, can become sth ;wearble', it was turn into a dress, blazer, shorts and a jumper?., haha admire him man!. wend's idol?

mmm.....buti guess we're 2 youngest peeps hu attended. HEEE so rong xing. hope nxt yr..n nxt nxt yr can go....again haha. mmm nice tum. electrico nice nicZ!!!!.zZz

2005-03-28T06:45:00.000-08:00

mmm today i gt transfer to clementi..haha no more working wif my tt apprentice of mine. chat wif my boss alot.. real biz. haha she taught me alot. my boss and lady boss r nice n humorous ppl.

mmmm this yr's bday is my....most happiest of all de. except for e last evry part. when i went to meet a fren. i reai duno he piss me off. totallly.

ok so..mm mornin i went to SAO MU, go hm zZzz... meet up my pals.. it was raning. boo! we went to sentosa... few guys n few gurls? jus da usual peeps..hehe my fav comp. we went to tk tt cable car ride...i hvnt ride for yrs... i wanan tk da glass cabin da nxt tum.hehe den upon reaching.. we went up da sky tower ride. hehe guess hu we saw?! XU CHUN MEIarghghghg.my god sia. haha she was wif her 20plus bf sia... a gayish china accent guy. we all tink n comfirm its a ba pok?opps. gigolo. hahahaha den so...mm saw a 360degrees view of sentosa. nt da best but hey it was nice. anyway.. wend n i took photo wif HER sia,haha can feel her bony arms on my shoulder... n her wahaha accent, SHI SHI SHI WO JIU SHI XU CHUN MEI. AH NI MEN RUN SHU WO WO?
den....mm went to da beach..wlak walk...but our outfits..haha we soo outta place man. but anyway..hehe as i said.. its been realli long since i went de. nxt tum reali hope can ask all my peps out 2 play beach volleyball... chill out ton my nite dere? n see stars.. wil be possible ma? so romantic wahaha.

k den we went 2 makan... fish n co @ glass hse. mm 1st tum dere.... big grp of us. its e 1st tum i blow my candles wif a large grp of ppl. besides hm bday parties...when i was real lil. mmm receive things tt i like.hehe thanks ah. muacks.x bearbrick damn cute. n mm.. receive a label i reali like. a label my mum sis n i r craze abt. yen luv too. haha n yeah... a 2piece... wahaha wide range of gifts. i luv mybday tis yr except for da last few hrs. ok. this guy.. ws some1 my mum knew. 20plus ntu guy... mm he sort of confess.. id uno la. haha but i don like lei. duno la. least he gt courage wahaha.but he screw up my day, no my nite. n hey i wanna reali wanna ride da G-MAx.k. but hey den again... i;m keeping my options open la.. enjoying wat i hv now..n cherishing evry moment of it. ;] wend smilez. k MY COUZ told em sth. 17do hv a meaning. we r a bud. cuz 18 (SHI BA YI DUO HUA). means we r in e mist of becoming..hehe so,....NI YAO BIAN DE HEN PIAO LIANG...BU GUO NI MEI YOU DENG WO.....................................) net, wend, YENNY JOLINE sarah xiao xin thanks!!!. n erm..k samama too.;]

2005-03-23T07:58:00.000-08:00

aRGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH. i lost my prince forever . left wif me...princess and angel. ah shitz,

OKIES, i've gt e band..but mmmm nt tt pretty lei. very thick. haha but thanks ah Daryl. helped me. hmmm but wa lao, my mum duno its for me..she threw away........
mmm i scream nn shout like a mad women sia. duno y. mb pms. post. but wat e fuck man. hee anyway, i receive a sp letter. mm haha slightly more chances. but i don wanna be seperated wif my frens lei. ...... ok jus nw went to watch spongebob sq pants da movie. mmmmmm i find tt i stil don realli like comedies. hehe btu cute n funny .hehe but lamu too. but da's a moral of a story behind it. ;/ nt-so-gd-day-but-stil-better-den-be4........

2005-03-22T08:16:00.000-08:00

saw a gurl wif a nice PUMA bag n i luv her puma high cut. wend's type de.

saw a nike blue/white side bag. sis was on e verge of buyin...but mumm& stil wanna look around.

saw an adidas top, spag type. my god. but i 4get e name le. red.white. lurve e wordings. da salesman's kinda cute n humo too.

i gt a new headache. PRODUCT & INDUSTRIAL DESIGN OR I-A-D?
WHICH IS DA NEAREST ROUTE TO MY GRAPHICS CAREER? sian.z mum ask me make decision myself.

2005-03-21T08:26:00.000-08:00

mm another bad day. well no bad things ok today. mm ytd i really had quite a gd tm. went for a hair cut in e mornin, jus a trim. e nite be4, i was totally exhausted and damn bldy angry ALL BCUZ of work. mm guess e cut made me relax a lil. n thanks to someone, i can slp better tt nite. ;] thanks, a.t though we r a past, but u r someone i can find whenever i jus need da lil word of comfort... da soothing effect.... no hurt no cries, ur words ur voice made me slp real well. but..... hai some questions stil ring aloud in my head.... once in awhile.... n i stil mis u...but tt's a diff kinda mis. its of a longing for a very long...old fren.U. n i noe.........tt sometimes, no matter how i probe or ask, some questions r better left unsaid, un-ask and they are w/o ANSWERS at aL. i hv learn to noe tt, im nt strong its jus tt i believe i can 4get, BECUZ I WANT TO. cuz i wanna get out of da misery tt im in, in da 2yrs. n now i feel real relieve. believe me fren. u noe hu okies. ;]

although im single..STILL. but least i noe wat i want....better den i did few mths back.
ok so, den i went to town wif my mum &sis. shopp awhile... cuz i've gt some1 to meet.mmm brought a set of clothing. damn.its cost a bomb btu haha. its sort of a gift. my prsent.keke.
so...went for makan wif tis guy fren, i owe him a dinner treat..den we went to catch HITCH. wahaha 1st attempt for comdedies. well it was nice la. den we went 4 a 2nd movie. HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE. haa finally able 2 watch it. i luv tis movie. be4 tt, we had drinks, n neo prints. den he send me home. reach hm at mid-night. well it isnt so much of a DATE cuz my mum noes him.jus a casual fren...askin me out. well..it is ........right?

i wuld luv 2 be date by someone..haha im so busy. anyway... bday present mux big big hor.wahaha.jus jk. i stil hvn decide my plans.... see how ba. every1's so budget..and so m I.

next movie i wanna catch, spongebob sq pants, swing girls, and any horror movie? wuld luv it.
but lei...my dream date senario wuld be.................................
>>.gg to clarke quay...nice dinner.no nid be costly.
>>.stroll...visit da tiny toy shop.
>>.more photos ok.
>>.meusuem trip.
>>.hippo tours?any1?
>>.sentosa 'mo tian lun'.
>>.chat by da stars,on da sand and by e sea.........woosh.splash. ;]

2005-03-19T08:55:00.000-08:00

am i realli a perfectionist? in search of a perfect love?

2005-03-19T06:50:00.000-08:00

when ever im worked up, i forget wat i wanna blg. n im reali surprised at myself, y im so addicted to blg...nowadays?haha my venting machine ba..i guess. okies i remb.
hrrrr...hrrr. after venting out. felt slightly better. somebody pls ccalm me down okies. im MAD..stil mad stil angyr.but since tml's my off day. im gonna realx n enjoy my offday./

tml... i wanna go facial 1..den go to town as usual wif my mum..but sudden plans. im gg for movies..arghghg. i cant be gg wif my swollen red nose. haha im gonna get all tt shitty blackhaeds out be4 sch. im gonna look better!.hehe no I WANT to look better. so plans cancel. go for a haricut. no choice..no tum gg for a salon in my neighbour. it better be ok. or else i reali can fish-up find a hole n bury myself in it. bldy colleague sure hv sth to say nosy parker. she spoil my eveyryday mood. bldy hell. okies. wheni go to town tml, i'm gonna look for this Everlast shop.hehe im looking for bags, handbags, ARHGHG haiz, my white puma handbag. n my mesh?nah.....bldy bird, u sure bluff me. i wont believe u de. wat a day... sryz im so vulgar but its jus e way i am... when im grumpy, when my auntie vists me, when my workplace has a fuking DAUGHTER OF A BITCH. sryz YAO YOU KAO DE.

2005-03-19T06:45:00.000-08:00

im realli fucked up wif work. getting more n more...on my nerves. arhghg. tt bldy coolleague. cnt stand.sia. LIAN BANG HERE LIAN BANG DERE.... big fuk mal? im born dere too but i dont tink tt's heaven k. knn. im reali worked up. i duno how to say sia... fish fish fish.

fickle minded cold blodded hot headed clumsy

2005-03-18T06:44:00.000-08:00

mm yes. i finally got my hands to da album of my life. ha! TRI_ANGLE aka DONG FANG SHEN QI debut album. hehe its a new cum young korean group. omg. their voices..............next h.o.t in town. haha n tey can dance like RAIN CUM MICHEAL?haha no la. but i mean tey hv gt e looks... fair la though ;[ but gd-looking. my latest idol craze-chase.

mm aft wend got me e show.... STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN, she's looking for da soundtrack.. i went to ask today. da salesgurl says many ppl r lookin for it too. NO stock.haha i leave my name alrady.hehe wend when i buy it..let u burn haha!. jk. or if u found it 1st..oso sama SAMA ah.

omg sia, the SEVENTEEN mag... da horoscope section. very zhun lei. hmmmmmm ??????:it says tt duno wat relationshio dilemma? den i shld tell str to da person how i feel.... if nt it wil be too late... he wil look for affection else where. n when i except him to .... it eil be my turn to chase him? wat crap.haha though btu da front part's true. i duno if i shld write this. where wil all this leads? i mean ok la, he if realli WOO me la... n erm........i tink someone new mite comes along. a nice gentlemen guy. but LOL he jus ask me out for a movie nia. mb no la.haha mmmm i cant be thinking of 2guys rite? i mis da sama guy. awhile. but i find da New guy nice. MY GOD. sryz ah. better don see......................................................................................sama sama

impt hahahaah!

2005-03-17T07:36:00.000-08:00

mm im looking for this very impt sth. i even deprive myself of my slp.haha its a white puma handbag, wif 2-3 pumas animal on it. pure white. a bucket on the strap. appears on seventeen feb issuse or was it march? die.4get. its absolutely, PRETTY.haha peeps...who noes..hu saw inform me k. on e streets anywhere................................................................................................

i luv to day-dream...as much as night-'dreams.

2005-03-17T06:47:00.000-08:00

mm i find shortys..kinda cute lately.haha nt my usual cup of coffee huh./\/\
dressed a polo tee... striped, a berms, neither tt short as shorts nor as long as 3/4's. wif a nice shoe, skate or nike or zoo york.haha plus a mesh.cp. omg. can mk me drool haha. no la. im nt a desparate la. jus find this kinda dressing cute.& i liek it. this goes wil for dose not-to-macho type of guys. hehe n oh ya 4got 3add, plus a nice nt so short-short hair nt tt long too... stylish.HA!

i used to like sporty guys... guys 'ahlethic' tt sort. like bball player....ok, soccer player when i craze abt beckhams. haha jerry yan luvs bball too. fit, gd looking, clean shaven & muscular. haha nice to hug? haha

my mr.perfect wuld be some1 who noes wat he likes, btu wears sth tt suits him. hehe mux hv gd dress sense. somewhere betw str and sporty? haha. best .... hv muscles. haha suave, clean shaven like...........jerry. he's my dream mr.perfect. im dreaming....he has e perfect clean teeth, 'you ting you gao de NOSE', eyes tt 'sort electricity' & da perfect build n ht. hahaahahahahahahahhahaa.

i miss...i miss......i miss lotsa of thingsz...

2005-03-16T06:16:00.000-08:00

hmmm eveyrth i went to da bengawa-solo@tm interchange, always this 'huge' lady, short doll-hairstyle, wif a dolly face... a middle aged anutie la... face nt much of a happy expression..but she's nice deep down. well..y am i describing til like this. ITz bcuz she resembles.....................u ppl gueess?? haha mRs yong. she made me tink of ah yong. haha cute face..simple short sama length hair.... da face was like.. dolly...u mite tink she's fierce-better-dont-go-near but actly very warm & friendly. tt is wat i tink of AH YONG. hehe

Nice phrase>>> realli Nv realli judge someone by da face, hahas. aiya perharps is i miss SCHOOL too. tt nite..huibin wend & i..share cab hm frm chalet... hubin says she mis da old days. well i guess me too. n im sure every1..or most of us does. somehow or other.;\ miss everyth la. gd or bad. ok, nt da bad ones. "'"'"."'>."'>'"'<."'."'>"""'' memories all alone in the moonlight~~~~

mmm nxt, my colleague, my 'mentor, she's a mum wif 2kids. duno wat e heck her kid do...den she was scolding... den she was sort of 'quarrelling' wif her husb. den mb she's real fed up & upset. den she was like..... aft she came back frm da toilet.. her eyes was red. obvious she cried.

Women jus like to cry silently. no, women always shed tears silently.

Guys & gurls.... vent out emotions , frustations so differently. gurls...cry. yes. be it on deir fren's shoulders..or alone. but crying A-L-ON-E is unhealthy. i was once like tt. but a nice bud told em sth.tt made me 'waken'. crying alone isnt gg to change things. in fact it makes us feel even worst.

i see her red eyes.... da tears at da brim.... mmm mk me tibk of my mum. a few times i see da same look. when she was kinda worried abt my ah gong. when he fell. but choy la. choi!.
'] i mis my spending dinner wid my mum...dose rushing hm at 5... i used to grumle... but now i tink its a bliss. haha cuz i hv to eat dinner alone. n wehnever my mum wanna cook.. haha i sure rush hm.haha i guess i've finally...grown-up, nt tt fulyl mature..but more :];};};}:];];];]

working wores. AGAIN

2005-03-15T06:56:00.000-08:00

mm... i wanna go hk. i wanna go taiwan. but looks like da weather !!!arghghg. isnt tt perfect? arghghg. i wanna go disney land. haha hope i can jus enjoy myself at least.... before sch starts.

A cockroach took da lift wif ME.

2005-03-14T07:44:00.000-08:00

mm as usual to work.but hahA today's da 1st time i got up on time... dont i stil laze arond til my 2nd snooze. i did a lil warm up.... stretching my muscles.... to mk myself more awake n refreshing.n doin some of my knee strengthing exercises. but lei.... haiyo nth can mk me from being 'less blur" sia.was happily on my way to da mrt....when i dint even noe i 4get 2 bring my hp out. haha den my dad brought it to me.. blur me. den usual boring monday blues. ate alot today.omg.but my stomach's feeling kinda empty cuz i dint eat alot of 'actual' stuff at my fren's bbq chalet jus nw. jus crab sticks... sting ray n hotdogs. not full haha.

so.....went to my fren's chalet. gave her a very belated present.keke but hope she'll like it.i wonder when';s da nxt tum i can hv a meet up wif all my frens... miss everybodi. but im working working and WORKING.my off days? mm someone jus asked me out? duno comfirm le anot....but shanna/....i wanna go out wif u too.haha n sarah,,,hvn seen her...for ages. aiya too mani ppl 2 meet le la.

tml im gonna do sit ups. leg raises & more knee & waist strengthing exercies. hope i can wake on time.haha so gotta get some slp now. GD nite ppl.Gd nite.to .u.

....

2005-03-12T07:33:00.000-08:00

great.i've found an aim now. An aim tt's lost halfway in sec3. my guitar is growing dust. i wanna pick things up. n this is sth i can tk control. i wanna re-learn it. i wanna practice my vocals..too. ok.gd i don wanna be a gd-for-nth.

bad working day. dull life Absolutely no satisfation

2005-03-12T06:09:00.000-08:00

today jus wasnt my day. got reprimanded by my boss... arghghg. working wores. i nv teach my apprentice properly? my fault la. baka boss. den later so nice joke wif me.

mmm a fren of mine, though i'm sort of angry wif him now, told me sth abt him tt makes me 'feel' sth. hmmmmm how shld i say? well.. ok, he told me ...be4 march 1st he was always sleeping late and forever waking late.. for sch. for work@EzB BBq biz. he's a colleague of my mum's. small boss actly. so.. aft tt day. he jus wanted to change..told himself he wanted and wil get up at 8am every mornin, rain or shine no matter how late he'd slp da previous nite. i felt tt such a sudden change and e will to do it.. is remarkable. its sth he wanna do and he can do it almost instantly. a change, a good one. im tinking abt it...all the while when i was on my way to work, today. on e mrt, on the bus. i felt tt i needed a change like this too. i cant be grumbling everyday/night tt im tired. i needed more slp. i needed exercise. i needed more $$ i wanna buy this buy that. but mine, IS A MUCH BIGGER PROBLEM den him. cuz is MORE. i wanna start wif waking up & da exercisng part. i wanna exercise, practice my knee strengthing exercies...say mb 3times a wk? den on e other 2days...jus some form of 'warm-up (plz-mk-me-awake-&-refreshing-exercise). ok. i'll get up at......7.45 sharp. tt's my aim. im gonna start on mon. i hope...mentally up dere... i wil hv this will. cuz i hate my lifestyle nw.im practically wasting my life away. not enuff time 2 do things? busy? boo shit. tt's an excuse. i wanan be fit. i wanna be da old self me... n my knee and waist prob wont goddam pull me down. but i only noe how to tok. im a 3-min RE DU kinda person. how can i find this will & determination? mb my future husband mux be some1 like tt. so tt he'll be my role model...he'll be my lifelong reminder.?haha. but anyway, we cant be dependent on others forver, isnt it? to my peeeeps outta dere. well.. lead a healthy lifestyle k. haha i hv this sudden tinking rite after da bowling game ytd. flabby arms? tummy? i hate it. ji xin, if u' mite ever had a chance to read this.... cheer me on k. but im stil angry at u. boohoo!betrayer.wahaha

i dunno how i feel for u..... mis u a lil.... but no butterflies in my stomach wif i see u. no heart thumping, or nervousness. wat does this imply? but i do enjoy ur comp, but hey mb, im jus lonely. needed a companion but not a guy. i mean GUY as in serious relationship bf. dont tink too much ah. i duno la. im crapping. but im realli getting more n more lonely. haiz.

i really wanna go da tiny toy shop at clarke quay.

im listening to Jay's Dao dai.

2005-03-11T06:53:00.000-08:00

mm so today's my off day. go where lei? haha nt town this time. mmm mornin went to pay for my jae th..den meet my peeps... all da usual ppl.haha but be4 tt had a taste on d soup spoon. mmm special nt but super nice. tt's my bread-lunch.so... we went to NYDC's, i luv tt oreo cheese cake 1 u noe.... but 2day i dont liked tt so much. da cakes's but 'freezed' enuff....haha ok.den later watched BOOGEY MAN. scary show but i don realli understand man. n tt boogey man looks famliar?watch be4 lei......in some other movies? anyway i scream alot. scary sences...& even not scary scenes...too.mmmm stil ok. least its better DEN HIDE & SEEK.I TINK.

mm went bowling aft tt.... fun haha. but i 'deproved' man. onli strike once.haha but its realli fun. im reminiscing all da past times we had dere.....n at katong bowl. during da days in sec3..... aft sch, chiong to bowl, den lunch dere...always bully net buy bandito kfc...dose guys. cuz she sleodm play. haha jared is cute. jia you k. hehe aft tt we pool. heheh den lei.... go da food court makan.

ms's fd court is soo beautiful now. wif da sea view.... n da cbd landscape. da night view is fantastic... cool sea breeze. haha but jus nw i dint reali enjoy tt. kinda gt tease evry min/sec? haha wat ever. i live up to nth but myself. mm later be4 i went hm, saw tis bldy ncie cap, opps! don so vulgar. n a nice tee. die hvn buy jo's present. opps. haha jo dont see my blg ah. i noe u dint work. haha. anyway hope i can go her bbq @chalet on mon. get permisson 1st.
nite. my waist ache,again. mb i can nv bowl like e past anymore............................im sad. but i hv a whole brain of memories to live wif. nite.

LisT of things i wanna do*.+.~

2005-03-09T06:22:00.000-08:00

1. visit da soon-to-demolish toy shop@ clarke quay
2. visit all the meuseums
3. Go W.W.W
4. k-box ktv
5. Guitar
6. holiday wif my mum. ][wanna go taiwan][
7. change hp?
8. sentosa beach haha lame rite?but damn long no go
9. G-max
10. hippo night tours.
11. fly kite. haha suku me. nv fly be4.
12. someone to cook sth for me. wahaha
13. nv go changi beach be4. bleahxz
14. cycling?roller-blading?bowling?pool?
15.rock climbling
16. draw & draw & DRAW
17. it-course. multimedia or photo shop software.
19. go holland V makan.
20.secrets*
20.secrets*

working life is bored. daily routine is a NO-No for me

2005-03-09T06:08:00.000-08:00

mm finally remb wat i wanna blg. all of a sudden....dese days, i LOVED to blg.. i dunno y. mm guess i nid to vent it out. if not not healthy ohh.

Im in a dilemma. i was tinking if i shld 'quit' rest for a whole mth or least 2weeks ......bcuz i realli wanna 'REST'. i realli hav alot of things to do. wnana hv fun, enjoy, wanna spend more tum wif my mum...family....freinds. before..... sch starts. cuz when sch starts...im gonna be serious & get down to serious 'biz'. haha i gt this mental prepared-ness liao. anyway whole load of things to do la...man.

BUT, hai. on the other hand lei, i musnt quit, i cant quit, bcuz.................................i needed to earn da $$$ for my art materials. mb i've mention this millions of times?wat ever, so.....i cant quit. for the sake of $$? boo!. im a bad 'spender' , dosent noe how to save $$ for rainy days..... arghghghg. jus now i jus walked past dose lil stalls...along da interchange.. n aghghghg itchy hand me,.....nearly spend unnecessarily. but da bracelet is way---tooo---unique.haha & i needed to buy a belated present... no its 2. arghghg. my pay's days away.....haha but my savings is abt 20& less? this mth.. arhghghg spend $$ like water. H-E-A-R-T A-C-H-E. but its realli very nice...........................................................................................................lei.

Nxt th, i stil nid 2 save up for my 'dream plan'..haha guess mb i shld go for some 'how-to-manage-ur-mere-lil-$$' course or sth. when i see nice lil things..... i cant expect to.. ""mummy, i want buy for me""". im nt a baby.

i hate to work. arghghgh. life is somewhat a boring routine NOW.i cant even hv some time alone, when i can jus laze around, blare some LOUD music, sing ktv at home.. haha realx & dance to da moves?. i needed some time alone. i felt tt im getting more n more lonely? isolated? cold blood? culdnt be ba. haha jus not so like me. mm im nt in a bad mood..... mood swing?haha but im a happy person. yes i tink i am. i tink.......

................................................................................

2005-03-07T06:52:00.000-08:00

mmm i've already tod of wat to blg le...in da morning but now lei???? forget liao lei.
mm oh ya i remb some. i 4get again.boo.

hey~ hey~ <<

2005-03-06T07:15:00.000-08:00

mmmm mp3's nt functioning properly.

no songs to listen...

been tking cab alomst 24/7 haha's.

kinda broke...pay day's 2 whole weeks AWAY.

IM NT in a bad mood. im nt.im nt.

but whnever im down i msg him.a.t

haha tonite i did. but i dont feel tt i am LEI.

mm boohoo i stil own some1 a present.haha's.

but some1 stil own me my sth. eerm!erm!..haha

hoobstank>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<

~tired like hell...beat like f*sh~

2005-03-06T06:57:00.000-08:00

mmm i guess i realli culd do wif some S-L-E-E-P. since da chalet....& all da late nights on the net....on the fone...worrying bout results tt period....til now. i HAVENT HAD ENUFF SLP. & when i dont hv enuff slp, i feel damn bldy lerthargic? grumpy & i duno wat else. haha. even off days oso nv slp. had fun gg out...but haiyaya not enuff slp la. i admit im nt a I-LUV-SLEEPIN-TT-KINDA-PERSON, i used to say i hate slp=ing.....but recently... woah. my eyebags .......haha its always around...... but im becoming a panda.

mm & oh ya, im so disorganised now. past, excuse is study, now lei.. working excuse? im lazy man. i culdnt do wat i want.....culdnt get things done..... culdnt do anyth. somebody help me ???? haha im poor at time management & organisation. but im tinking abt my course though.... 24/7. hehe looking forward to it but scare of the sleep-less nites awaiting for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

hey to my frens u who hu r ar. hey hey dare to dream & realise it. hv confidence in urself...& pick up wat u lost on the way. nth's realli impossible though if we work hard. chances r hard 2 come by tt y we mux grab it asap. be it now or future.......do wat u want noe wat u want & fufil it. i had a lil dream now... wif some pals...its a secret. it may seem far..yes it is.but at least i dare.....to......dream. dreams mk my life worth living other luv. puppy luv is afterall...puppy luv. but i miss u anyway. lOL guess wat u like.... tok wat u may. im nt gonna care

sryz a lil grumpy tonite. gd nite.

GeT tangLe up In Me.. skye sweetnam

2005-03-04T07:15:00.000-08:00

hmmm...yes. its finalyl settled. no more headaches. i got in, into....I-D-A, tp.
but da guy i met/....tt lead me to da professor says that in tis course dere is hardly anytime to slp...no. cant slp at all. haha so...mm guess aft i quit my job 2 prepare myself for it....im gonna catch lots and lots of slp........ maybe i wont hv a chance to once i enter. i'll be slp-less for 3whole yrs haha. tis is one friendly senior-to-be...no hostile or yaya ppl. lucky. phew!

mm its like so relieve. but today be4 i went in..it was like omg.wil i regret? m i sure abt this? haha aiya don care le... i already SAN XIN LIANG YI duno for how long......its been wat i wanted all my life.....until this media deisgn cum graphics came along..............................................but da cop is way tooooooooo high. yikes. hai. guess we cxan nv hv wat we love da most. THis applies to almost eveyth on EARTH.

i experience a 'aftermath' . tsunami has a aftermath of damage * physiologically damage too. like not only properties r lost..loves but oso the mental state. more ppl gg insane etc la.mine is a aftermath of mm...well a past relationship. everyth changes the min he came n went. my thinking...my hopes.... n etc la. in short, i wont be able to like someone whole-heartedly anymore...at least for now. my grieving period has long been over..... but e aftermath of it is 'permanent'. im nt suffering from depression . sometimes i feel like as if im experiencing diff moods at the same time. 2min im sooo afraid of loneliness the nxt, i like the serenity of being alone..... having the tum to mk my mind peaceful.so funny lei?~?? mm den 1 min i tod i like tt some new... the other im having my doubts. well oso my fear. im afraid. i hv e same 'sendimentals' ][is tis da word?][ as janet. i can understand fully how she feel.

well anyway im e sort hu is gamed n 'adventureous' but timid & withdrawn depending wat sort of a circumstances, but i do tink tt life is short. shld live w/o regrets & LIVE LIFE TO DA FULLEST. :p

im stuck.

2005-03-03T07:52:00.000-08:00

mm im stuck. shall i go str for the INt D or for the latter? risk & appeal? i dunno. i slp well already but still its a tough choice.

mm today went out wif a few frens..frm ur class, & wend too. to sp, tp. den town for moVies.
The series of unfortunate events is 1 nice movie. hehe the story line is special... wif humor it toks abt e close relationship tt e 3 siblings hv. mmmm i duno hw 2 summarised but its a MUX-see.

mm..this someone. i tink tt he's been nt his usual self lately? aft getting our results... everybodi's gg thru a 'turmor' headache as to where we r heading n where we want to. guess many things is on his mind tt he isnt enjoying himself 100%???? my opinion la. he is one guy i hvn had jitterrys in my stomach.... u noe-wat-i-mean? i dont like him THAT MUCH nor do i hate his presence or comp. mb im frank but this is my blg.. i write wat i want. mm but hey its jus a small start. i nv wish for anyth nv tod far. i jus hope things r slow cuz i don wanna rush things. maybe when this blgy course th is over... all is SET den can we enjoy each other's company more? cuz its like its always a wrong timing. 1 time is me tt's too tired..... well now its him n mb me oso... cuz we r all headache abt our courses. well... all i wanna say is let nature tk its course. ;]

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2005-03-02T07:17:00.000-08:00

back to blg again. hvn blg these few days.mmm before getting results its like W-O-R-R-Y den aft getting results oso W-O-R-R-Y. life is all abt worrying?suferring? shitz.

mm..im a blur gurl. counted an extra 2points.yikes told e whole world. omg.sotong. mmmm had a world war 3 wif my mum,dad,sis practically mu whole family la.now aftermath:::: sth gd.hehe a nice ntu fren cum my mum's 'colleague' tok to her.hehe well most of my frens supported me into da aura of design.....except ADULTS. mmm mum gt scare of me..finally relented. she wants me not 2 regret. n shld i culnt cope halfway tt's my whole shitty busniess.

aft 1 nite of 'nightmares' insomia finally..tml im gonna do it. reg & tt's it. but be4 tt im gonna try out a omg-so low cop' course. media D. wish me gd luck...pl.

i dont type like my usual self lei cuz mb my blg seems soo invisble nowadays.haha
nth im nt tryin to imply anyth. mmm but felt ps dint get a fren a present.
mm toked to 2 person jus now...haha 1 ex.. n another is a current on gd terms guyy? nice tokin 2 both though on e way hm my stomach was grumbling like hell. anyway went to do sth.gt a surprise small 1 for 2frens. hehehe mi.mi. mm no regrets in e things i do.cuz i hated regrets. shld i fail tt's it. mb i'll go apply for air stewardess. wahaha.

mmmm i go eat papaya le.hehe sryz ah. gif u a belated present k. i mis my rabbit, sarah wahaha.

2005-02-27T08:03:00.000-08:00

today ... wah i went hm at 7plus 8. after bathe.. i wil str to bed.. zZzZzZzz tired like hell. dint slp at all. hehe den wake at 1plus went 2 town wif mum& jie. go makan hi-tea,yum cha chit chat den shopping!.hehe mmm saw alot of things i wanna buy..but my mum hold me back. boo hoo. this MNG;s mini pullover so kawaii lo. another is a demin 1. nice but price is NICE too.

den went over to adidas 'limit-ED' shop. da white jersey type jacket. new 1. woah. ncie.nice.ncie hehe . i guess i hv 2 save up for nxt mth's pay & wait for prices to drop....hehe hope got SALE.
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.lazy 2 type liaoz...

ok.nite. gd luck 2 every1. hehe

tired.hehe.but.over-whelmed-with.emotions

2005-02-27T07:32:00.000-08:00

mm this 2 days. mm its roy's chalet. so...last nite when over wif wend & shanna... after work.
mmmmm overall..stil not bad la. quite fun. jus a day (no its nite) to chill out play Poker,chit chat makan, crapb & relax ...... a stress-get-away from U-noe-wat-im-refering to... on mon & from boring work routine. a time to enjoy & hv fun. it was FUN-ny .... oh ya we played monopoly as well. craze ppl...man. play half way sianz liao..no hotel 2 build 1. so......all dese etc etc...................

mm dere was crazy music, DRINKS & hey it was da 1st tum i ate so little..during a chalet bbq,hehe. i was like 1 sec my stomach was grumbling, but lazy 2 eat den the other sec no appetite.

mm realli toked alot last nite..... wif da guys.. wif shanna wend... crapb & not-so-serious-yet-kinda-serious-stuff. hehe heard alot too. shocking?teeny weeny bit of pleasant?happy?i duno la.haha i duno wat to say. actly im blging this entry wif a new 'feeling'. duno hw2 say oso la.. like mm writing it wif a brand new feeling tt IM NT ALONE... MY BLG IS NT TT DESERTED AS I TOD IT WULD be. haha wat ever la. jus plain surpried no VERY.

LOL. NOBODY'S TKING DRUGS EXCEPT DA ANTI-DRUGS TV COMMERCIAL . chi la ka haha.

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2005-02-24T06:42:00.000-08:00

mmmmm da news'''''sa finally out.ok mon get results. hehe mb i can excuse myself from work. but tt'll be VERY ps.cuz he asked me to work lei...on sund.but i turned my boss down. yikes. he treat me sho gd..but i.............mmmmm teens....haha im one of dem.

tired le.don wanna blg le.nite.

mixture of thoughts mixture me

2005-02-23T05:28:00.000-08:00

mmm today i knock off real aly.hehe 4plus.&im on my way to tampines mall. boss closes aly.hehe duno where da heck he's gg? pat tor>?shrugs.
so i went to SPOTLIGHT woah,i realli luv da place. its got all-u-nid-for-dIy...from cross stiches,buttons to curtains cloth & iron ons, practically everything . so.. well i of cuz.... buy a whole damn lot of things.... mmm i'm making a gift.hehe but hey can anybodi gif me any ideas wat sought of a gift best for a guy? im making for a girl ...la.

okok etc etc. mm its been awhile since i last chat wif shanna... dint bump into her online....hope ya see my blog.hehe contact me if u're free.hehe

mmm i meet a BOO HOO customer NO CUSTOMERS ytd. yikes. i dont feel like ur toking abt it...but arghghghghgh!>~ so yucky.

my mum says i'm very chatty lately. haiz does she noes y? i'm working 7hrs been working for abt a mth... facing 3walls & a door almost A-L-O-N-E . my boss's out often & i sometimes stare into da THIN air.... sometimesd i can browse thru my magz & books la.. but practically its getting BORED-ER mmmm......... but its slack enuff .... haiz can someone knock da IDEA OF QUITTING off my head????????????????????????????????????

wat shld i do?

2005-02-20T06:20:00.000-08:00

mm today's yenny's bday.hehe happy bday yen.
mm joline,yenny & i wen out. to meet up & of cuz to celebrate her bday.
nezxt...hehe mm is janet's.
mm my wallet gonna hv a big hole.....den dere's 2more peeps.hehe
mm i had kinda a mixed feeling today,again.
remb wat zx said..hey sryz tis has got nth2do wif u.k no sry ah.
mmm heard some nt-so-ncie things AGAIN.
mm & im such a rash & impatient & hot-headed gurl.
i realli felt like jus go up to him & jus tell him how i feel.
but sth's holding me back. & i noe its gd for me. i shldnt be tt rash..
wat's all tis time for..cant i wait. i mux be patient.
but its like on the other hand.. u noe frens wil say like....
wat if he likes u too... arghghghghghg.hehe WO HEN XIN JI
but on another another hand, i dont like him TT much, do i?
cant be right. hehe we erm....jus toked toked MORE den we do in da past
& in da past 4yrs...of cuz. mm well..i realli mx remind myself to JUS BE patient.
wat if i get hurt?mm all da wat ifs. but jus sitting der & doin nth isnt ME okies.
im nt tt sort hu hides everyth n e other party noes nth. mmmmmmmm
wat shld i do? hey ahiyo i guess mm sometimes i osow orry too much.
nth to worry bout k. but when u heard things...GOOD ones...& bad..... ur sth up dere...
Signals mah..right? mm i mean im a typical human being, ordinary gurl ... hu dosent nids luv..
neeeds tt extra shoulder to lean on in times.. needs da smile & comfort tt hm..u're loved u're cherished, ur attention sought after. & i guess im realli singlefor soooooo long.....
yes. tt longing but im nt a DESPERATE gurl la. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
sigh, luv mks da world go around & luv mks me headache .....as well.
shanna y nv see u in msn dese days..... i mis u hehe.

sama sama. arku chinta kamu.

BOO hoo!.what a way to spend a week~~~

2005-02-17T19:28:00.000-08:00

mm im stuck at hm on VDay.i got sick on cny's 4th day. all the way until now.
what e heck is tis? nv been on a exercise regime? nv had enuff greens? i guess i really mux exercise more or play more sports & head down to gym.

i started having flu, headaches..seen a chinese physician den i gt better. i went to work on tues & wed. & boom~!im back at it again. though my headaches r gone..i stil hv tt flu bug nt wanting to leave. so i went 2 see da funny little man, chi phy he gave me a duno waht liqour-cum-med. Some sort of to release wat ever is inside my body. & ''it really did'. felt sooo lethargic all of a sud,i gt fever a high one tt very nite at 1am. boo hoo!

my dad took me to see a 24hr clinic n so..here i am 2days mc. my fever sudsided but not my cough & flu. sianz. can i sneak outta hse? i needed some fresh air. i hated to be coopped at hm. but lately da weather can KILL.so perharps its better i stay hm. but lOL..i jus glued myself on da tv all day long. sms wif a fren & read. quite sianz lei..but better den work. hehe

ok gotta go. bo!o!frendster pics r getting dusty. i wanna change `dem. see ya.

i start work le

2005-02-15T06:36:00.000-08:00

today got ANG SUA.

boo! i vaccum da floor twice man.jux bcuz of all da veggie & orangy peels all over da shop.

my boss laughed at me.

i jus recvered hehe

zx bai cai, im nt mad at u.dont worry

happy new yr

2005-02-15T06:29:00.000-08:00

haha i'm so lucky. i got 3 additional angpaos 2day.
it may seem like nth but hey i spend a bomb over da new yr
so its realli comes in handy. after topping up fares, banking in $$ spending etc.
my expenses r BIG!. omg im tokin abt tis at tis age le. die! old hag me

..happy vday..

2005-02-13T21:27:00.000-08:00

ok this is e real one. i went out wif him 3times,gathering outings.
he ate wif such gd manners.he wears formal dressing.
he lost 5kg. he pass me a tissue,whole packet while watchin a movie last sat.
we sat together twice.but we dint talked much.he's a gentlemen.
i guess im falling for him.until i heard bad things abt him.shld i believe?
i tod he's changed for e gd?or is it al hidden under?happy vday to u.hope u feel it.
but guess u'll nv noe, less i hv e courage 2 say it.but i don1.2.im a rash gurl.its nt like me
but its nt e rite time. i wish u greet me happy vday.bad ass boy.

...today's Vday...

2005-02-13T21:07:00.001-08:00

mm its been shooooo long since i've last blg. & this is always forever my opening sentence.haha
when i blg, for after so long, there's sure to be something tt has happen or happened or about to happen.

i guess, i've started to fall for this guy. jus started. he caught my attention sometime last year, during an old gathering. We arent tt typical friends & we never used to talked much. but lately we did. we went out, with old friends to town, to sentosa & alot of places. he used to be a paikia with a stupid attitude. but i guess he've changed. when we went for a movie 2weeks ago. he passed me a tissue. haha 1 piece. cuz we're watching a real sad movie. & i forgot to thank him. but still, nth came out of us. friends remind me nt to be impatient n rash, as i always am. buT,BUT, it pains me to tink tt, he's in front of me, and he's got no idea my feelings for him. haha
he's tt kinda tall, but fair guy. fit but recently he lost a few pounds. sick? dunno lei. mmm will he ever noe? im oso kinda afraid that wat if he knows.... wat wil he says? he's putting relationships on hold..cuz he wants a carreer? oh btw he's 18soon. hehe same mth as my bday. woah.hehe but diff horoscope.

but jus 2day, i've discovered somehting. tt is, he took drugs. he drink & drive & he smoke. he's gt al these bad habits. will i ever regret liking him? its stil too aly to say. cuz i dont even noe wat lies in e future. n if he feels any shit for me. boo hoo.

actually, this story above is a lie. a white lie. but i hope he'd read it.
...;[happy vday to all my frens ];...

mMm..today's vday.

2005-02-13T21:07:00.000-08:00

where should i start from...

2005-01-15T09:17:00.000-08:00

mmm... i dont feel gd. my mum objected to me tking up int design course. my parents dunno watr e heck is visual com/grahpics design all abt ........ my whole family is against it.

so it is plain gd advise or should i live a life tat is leaded where all my decisions r of my parents?????

my boss told me alot too..abt design courses. true she says tt this path is quite 'narrow' & on e best da cream of crop survives & thrives. u gt to hv the TALENT, e FLARE e YOU"VE GT WAT IT TKS kinda th tt's already in U to be able to get thru this course...& later on 2 be real sucessful in this field. haiz. this coming monday i'll be tking up e drawing test....& tt wil determine whether i hv wat it tks anot ba. if i failed i wil be brave i wil face up to reality. oh ya my boss mention sth abt practicality. tt's very impt. but if i passed....guess my hse wil hv some internal ""conflicts""?haha. of cuz i dont wish 4 tt...but hey i jus wanna study sth tt im interested in. but i've my 3rd choice:::::: creative media design, media studies, digital media deisgn & multimedia. but these courses r quite it-based. LOL im a COM-I_D_I_O_T. haha. but i'lL tink abt it. anyway my results arent out yet. but im such a slow-mo & fussy person when it comes to decision-mking & choice-wise kinda stuff. so i guess i better tink earlier.

LOL..its been ages since i've last exercise. my waist is getting frm bad to worse. a fren recom a cl physian but i havent gt e time 2 go. i want my mum by my side. haha. im a mama gurl.!

mmm..im reading a bk recently...& it sort of touched me. title :::: NIghts in Rodanthe by NIcholas Sparks. its a luv story...sad but nt like any typical luv story. its nt a romance-teeny type of story. its a story of 2 middle-aged ppl. kinda KE KU MING XIN type...... soo mature ... this story oso toks abt divorcee...partings, loss of the beloved & some mistakes adults mk. it mks me grow up. n i feel tt i've learnt alot.

to be cont................

.................. wat a way to spend my 3days...........

2005-01-09T04:27:00.000-08:00

mm..i've started a new job on thurs. erm... selling uniform at a shop call bibi baba. haha wat a name... mm i found it thru.... some guys in my class.. their job is da same...but they r selling in at schs... mm wend n i. she went to rgs, ri while i landed myself in da main shop. later on wend joined me on fri.

bascially my job was to serve customers & help dem 2 get their uniform frm all tt various sizes in da stocks. well.. it seems easy... ast 1st.. my 1st day a newbie....i asked, im blur... but lata on things gt ok. BUT mmm.. finding uniform sizes frm tt huge shelf of stocks...was ERM D-U-S-T-Y- haha. call me a DA XIAO JIE or some snoob wimp but LO.... tt very nite MY NOSE was itchy like hell...& i was sneezing way into da nite..... use alot of MA TONG JI lo. hehe. mm oh ya we tk turns lunching...so da 1st day i went lunching wif tis gurl, another part-timer.. erm.. ok ok la. all i can say is NEUTRALITY. mm wend when to RI, she went down2 da shop...but they dont nid her...so she erm.. waited an hr plus or 2 hehe 2 wait 4me. keke. we went for dinner & shopping hehe. tired la so very aly go hm,.

2nd day: boo...bcuz ytd i was late.. mk a pt 2 get up earlier...but lo.. i dint. i ran all da way when i step out of orC mrt. so... da same old th.. serving customers & stuff. wend went to RGS tt morning.... n lata she joined me. mm least` she's dere if nt i sure SIANZ LIKE HELL. hee wend n i went off at 7.3 sharp... we went 2 far east...dining & aft... when slacking & drank some iced blended stuff at lvl 1. haha her mango iced blended like like... she said plasticine? sticky & slumpy. keke. tt stall was SMOOCHEE STATION i tink. btu her orange+honey dew was fun.k den aft we headed hm.... zZzz

3rd day; (wat e f**K) worst day of 2005. wend dint work so...it was me alone. lo... i dint noe sats damn lot of customers.... hao lian parents... fussy... stupid face... carried such a 'MY SON IS FRM ACS/ MY DAUGHT IS FRM SCGS SO U BETTER TREAT ME LIKE HEAVEN' attitude.. waoah tink she's god? customers r flocking in & 1 freaky mum is making such a din.. shit shit shit. so..i was busy like hell...at 12plus.. my stomach is signalling...i jokingly told da I-C im hungry. she told me aft she ate ic an go. 1plus: she let 2 other gurls go.... i grumbled joking again.. 1of dem offered 2 packed 3 4 me..but i turned down. 2plus... my stomach was mking noises.... customers jus as many.... da gurls r eating in da storerm, da I-C LET 2 OTHER guys off2 lucnh. i asked kindly again..LO.. she says wait 4dem 2 come back. wat e fuck. i realli no strength 2 serve le la.. man im nt a robot. k i can undersatnd busniess was damn bldy gd & every1 is busy. but lo... da I-c kaoz. at 3 another guy went. f*sh. i culdnt tk it anymore. i went up 2 I-C ..... noe wat she said : ' OH U HAVENT GO AH.. HAIYO.. MUX BE VERY HUNGRY.... " wah... tt moment i felt liek strangling her. mb she had poor memory i culdnt blame her. so i went of... FOR LUNCH AT 3PLUS cursing n swearing... ic all my dad 2acc me. he's busy ....so he treated me spag at da poolside palm cafe hehe. nice fd.. ncie ambience... my hands stop trembling. ok my stomach was fiilled & i felt better. lOL.. i realli cnt work wif an empty stomach. dont 1 2 write le la.

busied... bruised knee.. full like shit

2005-01-04T20:51:00.000-08:00

mm... da prom's over.. january ish here. im starting to job hunt all over again. us quitted my waitress job@griller. rest. sianz le.. too too tired & dont wanna cont to be a passive smoker. lOl.. n down dere da ah bengds r yucky. mm... im gonna developed all my prom photos haha.. but im waiting for some pics...dere r stil on da way...zr's n her frens. i tink. heee.

mm..ytd i realli had a godaam busy day. woke at 10+...den ate my breadstick & cereal drink. den noon head down to aunt's hse@redhill. but be4 tt haha... im ktv-ing away..back in my mini 3-rm 'apartment' to 'open my vocals'. wahaha. gt reason de. so....mm went over to see ah gong.. he's living wif my aunt this few days. den couz my aunt & i made bread. haha! it was fun. we dint stick to da original designs...n so.... mm we made all kinds of shapes... n we invented our own hotdog-cum-crab-stick-cum-cheese buns.!!! hehe. kawaii!>z but mm cuz im rushig for tum lata on...sooo i onl gt 2 tk hm 2. cuz e rest.....mmm mux wait. haiyo~.z sianz./

so...im rushing down to tanjong pagar nxt. m inteviewing...mm actly its more like auditioning. cuz i saw tis ad, says mm tey're lokoing for candidates for live performances... 4 ppl hu likes to sing... so.... i went down jus for da fun lo. n 2 see wat's it like. keke mm.. so went down.. da place was like.. some sort of a studio cum office. a little stage.etc/ so i talked 2 da person de.. a young lady very sweet, chatted n she wants me 2 sing 2 her.. standing on tt stage. she told me abt courses.... fundamental..& for live performances.... mmm... btu lei tooo ex la. n my mama object...soo here's goes.. my 'dream' ???.............

mJr Prom nite 31st Dec 2004...

2005-01-01T07:15:00.000-08:00

A memorable nite...

mm blogging on new yR day. mm last nite was mm...where should i start writing? started getting prepared at 3..mm haha thanks to my sis.. makeup done by her... dress ish hers.. i realli saved a lot of $$$. & my hair D-I-Y LOL.& mm plus da shoes..my mama pay.. n i onl brought my furfur handbag. mm very satisfied wif my outfit ytd.. hehe

mm..den lata head down to wend aunt;s hse.. aft she's done.. we'll out. when over to bugis to meet yen, zh. dan da 4of us head 2 prom 2gether. & lo.. its realli raining like mad..haha quite fa man actly.. ytd. on n off.. on n off.. even in da mist of prom it haven stop raining.

so..mm upon arrival.. etc etc lazy to write. it started a bit late.. cuz zr was late.. steph too.. mb caught uo wif sth or sth.. den but lo.. da prom stil started n well eveyrth was smooth & overall it was a success. thanks to ZHENRU, STEPH & ALL DA PROM COMMITTEES.. CHERR, ROY N ENG HUA? N HU? I OSO nt sure. hehe

mm..so nice can spend new yr too..wif yenny n wend n etc etc, in fact EVERYBODI. my 2nd countdown hehe. mm n oh ya da waiter & da service very gd oh. e waiter kinda friendly but lo he dee siaoz siaoz.. attemp 2 spray me lo!> hehe.

mm..everybodi was soo pretty, dazzling & suave last nite too. guys r realli smart & can say its da 1st tum i see dem wear suits la.. roy our prom king ...mm very handsome.. zhen hong our prom prince.. oso very charming.. n our bachelor trition. haha gdlookin & soo smart. Da girls.. we're quite vesatile i can say. trendy?sweet?sassy?haha. n glamour? up to everybody to judge ba.
erm..
oh ya. our live band. at e start everybodi went in wif an empty n y stilc nt eat state..soo da response wasnt 100%. btu lata on.. when da nite is darker.. wooooo ha!. ppl get high...n groove n dancfe to da music. cool performance & i mean they great!. cheers for mm..xiang han n band. srys 4get'duno name.

e mjr-idol ish huimin! hehe . sweet looking & has a sweet voice too!. n last min tt idol th.. i paired myself wif xiang han we sang s.h.e's re dai yu lin. heheh. jus for fun keke.

mm.. da food is quite nice.. wahh y m i blogin in such a funny sequence. haha el failed liao.
upon reaching 12, ppl r dancing liek craze.. singing like mad.. atmoshpere was 100% duno how 2 descibe, all of us indulge in da music .... & its like its been ages since we last realli let our hair down n party.

to me.... last nite's prom nite doesnt look so much so like a formal graduation prom nite, it seems like a party. haha okies memorable wacky fun cool formal & i enjoyed myself . cheers. HAPPY NEW YR.

""nightmare"" before new year....

2004-12-29T08:28:00.000-08:00

mm...today went to town wif shanna... she pei me go tk my pay & cut hair. mm funny hairstyle.. nt like mt typical xiao hui auntie amanda look. haha but quite 'brand new' i intend to try to style in up. haha. mm no more feminine le.. mm den aft we went to town.... to shop for clothes.... (shanna) me my prom bag & acessories etc. lo. i brought le. n my pumps, too. its a really old design.. but becuz i jus gt my pay.. i spurt alll on it. da pumps is sliver de. heee. jie says da color is outta trend but hu cares. hehe

recently..or no, its ytd i dreeamt of ah tong. or i start to tink of him bit by bit again. but i dont like him le....jus tinking of da past onl... im tinking (this1is relli tinking) of erm..haha a new sought after fren tt i jus gt to noe..this long holidays. cute guy fren but ish attached.

i wuld luv 2 meet more ppl who r realli into design.... be it apparel or int or graphics!. hehe wuld luv 2 learn hw 2 use da abobe photoshoot software too.hehe someone ish gonna lend me..for da contest i hope he stil rembs. keke. tt's all folks. wat a day... happy, fun n oh ya tk neo-prints for da 1st tum wif shanna.. haha. cool. nice nice machine & nice outcome.
see ya. n i realli felt sry for da tsunami tragedy & dose hu lost their lives. n my fren too.
may all be blessed wif da warm wishes of da new year ahead, 2-0-0-5. ;)

p.s: who wants to acc me sign up for laselle preparatory art/design course???

hEY.. bTW

2004-12-27T04:27:00.000-08:00

haha.. forgot to mention i saw the SP SIAo CAo, Shan too..2day. haha very tallLLLLLLlllLLL. mm more handsome den in pics. heheh.

waT a Day...

2004-12-27T01:54:00.000-08:00

mm.. 2day i went to SP. went in.. cuz a fren offered to help me.... wif da graffiti contest tt i am totk part in. he's an int deisgn student... over dere..sooo he lended me his help..haha using da stuido lab. but...lei we dint realli do alot.. jus served da net looking for pics... did 2 samples... n packed up . go makan, but i dint eat. he n his frens.. r realli funny man.. omg! esp he's fren. big joker n erm a bit flirt??. kinda ps...& a little little OUTTA PLACE. boo!. keke. haiz. anyway im happy 2 see him.haha thoughish no chance de. he's attached.

i jus wana say... he's a caring guy, ti tie, & mm wil laugh til his face turned apple sia...big heartful laughs. haha. mm n he's da kinda guy tt dresses...erm like a jap?jap? str wear guy? i dunnnoooo..

but anyway he's attached. get a life xiao hui.

boxing day...???

2004-12-26T05:15:00.000-08:00

mm.. haha so happy. can save $$$$$ for prom. found a dress.. a party halter neck dress.. for prom. hehe finally im SA-T-I-S-F-I-E-D. brought my shoes..too coincidence-ly haha at orC...today. now im onl left wif acessories..n a bag?. ya den im done. but nt done wif my 'face n tummy'.! irk!..

to be contr...

this x'mas i gave u my heart..

2004-12-24T08:48:00.000-08:00

this x'mas is my busiest, most tired-dess smelly & errrkk. haha cuz im at work/ boo! soooooooo many birds of customers..haha
waist was abt to brk.. knee abt to gif way..

but 1 thing makes me happy tt i wudlnt even mind ...i met him.
haha i bump into my ex-crush cum fren.keke

soo happy. hee.
lo. nitez
to be cont...

mMm...penny for ur thoughts?

2004-12-20T07:08:00.000-08:00

mmm..life is somewhat like a routine??for me??hehe. mm working on fridays;, saturdays;, sundays;,...per wk. mm a whole new experience...as a waitress at a western yet nt tt western rest cum cafe cum open concept one. mm staff like holland chinese,nepalese...malaysians..hehe mm friendly ppl but hey im da youngest dere. oh ya der's a china lady but she gt fired jus a few days i came to work. huhr hurh heard tt she picks her nose....diggs her ears...yucks haha.no wonder ba lei kampong. mm learn new things....but sometimes made little mistakes gt said..hehe kind boss dint reprimand me,gt tease.. a little blur here n dere...but hey my 'boss' says im hard working haha. cuz sunday wat e hell... customer flock in like...birds. haha. mm but haiz. working life is tired.. standing walking around.. serving ppl.. but da best th i like abt my current job is ...mm i get to 'see' ppl, 'talk' to ppl.. n u noe..mm serve... haha n get some more 'cool' experience in f&b.

mm..so far im 16++...mm i've had quite a but of working experience...le i gues/.. but dere hasnt been a job tt i stayed for loooooong. haha. im a '3-min re du' person? no la. i culdnt figure out y too....mb jus tt..i gt bored...& hey i prefer temp job periods...hehe.
mm..i worked in Mcdonalds be4..n im nt ps abt it...actly a little la.but watz wrong if it?haha its a decent job. mm worked at cdac be4, some office admin stuff & scanning of documents.
worked as temp promoter, at expo be4...mm tt's all la..actly. hehe
actly i realli hope tt i can get to work in starbucks...& when im 18 i wanna work at HMV heeren.hehe 1though da pay for starbucks..omg little lei... but. ....i wuld luv 2 hv tt experience...$$ 2nd choice. hehe im very interested. coffee bean oso can. haha

mm... 2day i watch wend's stairway to heaven vcd...jus 1st 2 dics..& i was like crying like hell haha... soooooooooooooooooooooooo sad....& i cnt stop crying aft e disc ends. haha suddenly flow of emotions....n i tink of da past..my past.... it seems....it seems so lonely.

yes.i am. but i am no loner. i hv frens i enjoyed hanging out wif my frens.. had a pair share of laughter & pain wif dem`. but hai.....its been realli realli long since i had a bf. haha im nt desperate la..i believe i'll meet a guy tt i'll liked someday haha. no suitable ones currently... ncie guys...but they r all attached. single guys but there's realli no chemistry soo cnt be force ma...feelings & luv. ;)

all of a sudden, i sort of mis but ex. hehe actly i jus longed for someone tt can pamper me.. tt i can hug n cried on..whenever im down. cuz i cant possibly depend on my frens 24/7/365. i hope my nxt bf wil be some1 tt i can do fun things wif.. like play wif me... do silly things wif me haha.. like gg2 da beach ....da zoo.. etc etc. n i hope 2 meet more ppl who's into design...music & erm.. ya.. a street guy? haha. im gg craze la. okies. zZz gotta do things. SeE Ya

mMmm wat a week....Im over da mOon & stars

2004-12-11T10:23:00.000-08:00

mm its been quite a few days le..since i've last blg.dint had da habit of blogging evryday. mm recently no.. mm its jus, i;ve found a new job.. a waitress at tiong bahru plaza, griller rest. mm easy job haha 3days a wk..weekends.. btu boo x'mas wk i'm in. etc etc etc lo... mm found this job..& tt far is bcuz, i happen2 see an advt lookin for part-timers, italian ice-cream at tbp, so i went down..cuz i was bored slacking at hm... most of my frens r working..den when i reach dere..boo! 18yrs n above.. so i was like..mm very long dint go tbp..mite as well walk walk..mm most of da things,shops da same..except tt e fd there is a-l-o-t haa..den i saw this rest, griller.. wselling western fd.. pasta..s... spag.. & all so i when2 ask ask. haha n i gt a call instead. i went2 quite a lot of f&b..but none called except 1. THe soup spoon at raffles city haha... i didnt turn up.. backed out last min. tt pay is lower.

mm so..2day's da 2nd day. kinda interesting yet a bit boring... mm a new working experince.. working as a waitress bt im given aname, 'hostress' hey dont xiang wai wai.. mm like dose waitress tt bring u 2 da seats...serve da menu.. help 2 serve customers. tk orders.. (im learning).... haha quite new & a bit fun. n can oso get 2 eat da fd... order at ur fancy haha onl when u do closing.. haha..

mm but boo i'll be working on da days tt i'll mostbe out at orc... so now less shopping for me.. haha. x'mas oso bye bye. mm i mis ktv...miss pool.. miss my frens too.

mm jus now went 2 read a fren's blg entry.. mm sort of gt enlighten.. mm mb it woke me up.. 2 be more serious wif life & etc etc. but hey...hai actly i don wanna grow up.. tink 16,17 is a dilema age.. u want & dont want... havent yet learn when2 yes when 2 no.. when 2 gif n when to tk.... part of me wants2 get older ..im eager 2 experience new sch life.. poly life... a brand new envirnoment.....etc etc. btu part of me wants 2 stay da same old small me. lesser responsibilities...lesser worries.... & etc. & u get 2 be pampered all da time.haha n be it bgr or frens wat so ever problems,...tt if we nv faced..or much more innocent & blah blah blah.. haha

but overall im a happy kid. haha n mmm i decided 2 change my style of 'culture' dressing etc etc....haha secrets

n...mm i've found da fren..i met at expo..we chatted twice.. haha i learn n noe alot of things too...he's a int design student...& i gt alot 'out of him' haha... i guess it wil help..nxt yr..when im making my course n sch choices.. guess i've FINALLY NOE WAT I WANT .! hehe im so happy...

mm n ya x'mas's soon... any special x'mas for me? haha actually peaceful n staying home wuld be a gd choice as well?haha nah...........i'll be working...

p.s: i finalyl noe wat i want. ;)

Shutter.....ahhhhhhhhhhh

2004-12-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

cont:.....

mm shutter is a scary movie. haha scary enuff to mk me scream scream& Scream.. so needless to say too much le ba, but its ending culd improve la.. haha so lame. but overall i enjoyed watching wif wend n ah xiang aka bai cai. but LOl we culdnt finsih our small size popcorn culdnt finish our large sprite cuz..... e movie ah.. haiyoyo.. some scenes mk u puke.hehe but ITS AT LEAST NT SO HORICIBLE DEN SAW. hehe

after da movie wend n i & xiang parted n we went 2 bugi 2 tk photo. hehe da 1st time wend n i tk phot. hehe mmm speaking abt neo-prints.. its been ages since i last tk photo wif yen&sarah too..
mm every1's beeen busily working except me.. haha hard2ask ppl out. mb i'm gonna ask rabbit out tml.

mm 2day went 2 tiong bahru plaza... wanna go 1 ice-cream shop interview..hu chilaka when i went dere..... haiyoyo nid 18 yrs. newsp dint put no. so my trip is wasted. so nvtheless i wlk wlk around.. hehe realli hope 2 bump into him... 0.00000001 % (cuz he lives in tiong bahru) 99.99999 % impossible.. hu wuld everyday go tiong bahru plaza... haha. hai.. so later on jiu go hm. on da way go lib. hehe check out some hm decor mags.. haha shiok!. my mum wanna get a new sofa. so iw as helping 2 c if there's any ideas...i can offer. haha i realli luv interior design..but if i realli were2 study &pursue sth in this field.. i mite nt hv a gd rice bowl ohh... mm so im weighing da pros & cons.... all da perspectives etc etc. okies.end here. nite.

My x'MaS wiSH-LIst

2004-12-06T04:24:00.000-08:00

.+.~.* X'maS WisH-List *.~.+.
..................................................................................................................................................
1. S.h.e encore album
2. L.p & JayZ album
3. True star tommy hilfiger perfume
4. new Hp, camera de.
5. my ideal pumps
6. mickey mouse tee
7. nice side bag
8. tube dress
9. get rid of my tummy (laughs)
10. find my crush
11. ktv all day all nite long
12. visit all da museums in s'pore..((
find some1 hu can pei me to....))
13.my knee to be ok
14. my waist to be ok
15. new hair style
16.dye it black
17. s.h.e concert tix
18. bearbrick figurines
19. tian tang de jie ti vcd
20. temp laselle fashion,caricuture cartoon course.
21.VANS X SUPREME shoe
22. puma side bag
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shutter

2004-12-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

mm woke up at 10plus.. laze around had a small bite den watch mtv #. haha gt s.h.e ohh.. den gt some nice mtvs//den ahhh 11 already. n im meeting wend at 12. ohhoh haha rush2 get ready...but im stil late in e end. 4got abt e calculator thing.

.....wahh so tired tml den cont. nite

its another day

2004-12-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

mm nt so cranky liao.. but 2day da hot weather mks me kinda headache sia. mm i went jobhunting 2day.. heheh leisurely.. & shopping at da same time. alone. yes actually its kinda fun cuz its like u hv all da time in da world.. at 100%pleasure of doin wat u like..wat u pls. but im nt a lone freak la.. jus happen tt.. mmmm everybodi's ike start working le.. den tis morning den realise i can call sarah..den i lazy haha. so last min..quite troublesome.. den its like i mux go orc den go pp.. quite a dist.

wahh i guess im realli nt fit for bus journeys.. long ones. i tk bus36 frm oRc heeren 2 pp..all da way.. n all along da way.. its either i was feeling bad or im yawning yawning n yawning. mrt rides is da best fr me. haha but a 'bus' person. mb its oso bcuz i ride wif an empty stomach.. i didnt ate lunch 2day. yes i don mind gg out alone but i cnt eat alone. i buy snacks yes but i can nv bring myself 2 sit & eat alone.. wil always hv tis tupid feeling tt i'll be a greek or sth . haha. but if its during working den its ok la.. or at most i 'ta bao' back 2 my workplce. haha tt's da best.

so..i onl had sotong balls for lunch.. den i tk my tix fmr shnna... etc etc minus da details.
i went 2 ask starbucks.. n oh man oRc starbucks is 4.5 tt's okok enuff.. n u noe wat , pp is 4..weEeEEeEe quite pathetic sia. but 2 shldnt be so fussy haha.. like ME.but i was liek weighing da blah blah.. my transport & fd all tt.. enuf 2 cover meh?haha. hey they oso haven call.. tok so much keke.

mm tis whole wk i had late nites.. weeee....late. haha wat if i start work cnt adjust back.. i used 2 be some1 hu slps aly de okies. but im like wasting my late nites lei.. jus online..or toking..haha
wat ever la.. i felt free realli carefree anyway. except tt i didnt spare a tod for my already present panda eys cum eye bags. now its worst le oh oh!!! mux bao yang!! keke. so tt's all folks. nite. happy working 2 evrybody. hope i'll find soon.. easy.. & big $$ haha im tinking too much.

bad mood

2004-11-30T10:06:00.000-08:00

felt betrayed but im nt angry.
his words are logical i sounded ok but slowly.. da bad feeling is getting over me.
his words mk me feel tt im nt me.
jus nt me.anymore.
i've changed.
i don wanna change.
i want things 2 be back as it seems.. i want back da real me.

today...

2004-11-30T04:16:00.000-08:00

haha another slacking day..n resting day. tod i'll be gg 2 visit my grandpa but suddenly my mum dont hav her half off day.

mMmm.. almost all my friends started working liao..haha onl left me.. mm bu i wanna rest rest.. after tt 4days of work at expo.. my back, waist pain pain. heheh. but even if i ever find job.. find who pei me go interview lei.. haha on ya mao jie is oso jobless same. hehe cuz we work together at expo. mah. heheh

wake up at 11sth.. latest ever..haha during tiz holz. again had my brkfast ind a aftrn den ask big bird pei me eat lunch... he very gd last nite. help me buy super. realli ish my gd neighbour. haha but there's nth betw us.. i noe of his sweet dear dear n him stil gg on fine.. haha .

i wanna watch shutter. boo!>. wend workin.. janet starting soon.. yenny as well... wah all my friends working..realli.. shld i watch alone?wahah!> i don dare. waht if sth ][CHOY!TOUCH WOOD][ appears beside me. haha.

im cranky

2004-11-30T02:03:00.000-08:00

i was wondering whther i shld blog this anot. ok i receive this msg.. den sth happen.. den i felt cranky. i start to tink.. to go thru my thoughts.. all abt me n myself. i gues si've realli changed.. i become mean become sarcastic. i've met some1 hu realli dare 2 'spit' at me.. mking me at a loss for words. y is it liek this?

i've changed.
frm a girl who ask for nth..to a girl hu has great demands.. high standards?haha likes to critise n often act as if da whole world own her sth. i sneer.. shout n scream. worst temper den ever.. quick -temper soo ever cranky.. jus like now. i cant trust ppl.. new ppl esp... i dislike alot of ppl... i show critics at dem.. all as if.. as if im perfect n im tt gd n high n mighty. whcih in fact im nt.
i cnt accept ppl 2 tell me hw bad i m.. yesh. this is it. i hate 2 admit blah blah blah.

y is all this? i've changed....
mb its bcuz of sth happen a little few yrs ago.. 2 or 3 incidents.. it as remain dominant.. i hate 2 brought it up. nv 2 say it.. guess onl2 persons noes. its an ordeal.. i can nv get over it.. a knot tt i can nv untie.. becuz i haven gt da courage 2 open up. perharps its nth.. but its alot 2 me. mb i shld can pofessional help haha. im nt insane... jux mb slight depression..tt's nt heal.

im realli mutha fucker pissed. im vulgar. i hated tt period of me.. tt past... its nt as if as though i've been raped la.. haha choy!... but its nt sth meagre okies. i jus cnt trust guys anymore. n therefore i wil say nasty things.. wont hv gd relationships.. n guess if 1 day da knot is not open.. i cant find a new bf 1...haha its complicated. n i was wondering if i shld post this.. wil my frens send me 2 counselling...

i hv all da things in da world.yet im like finding things for me 2 worry...i hv a lovely family..frens.. but mb is due 2 my over sensitivity... i feel insecure..from a freind. im always over reacting.. btu realli i felt drifted. duno y. tt wil awlays be this insecurity feeling i hv within me..some times.. i ralli duno y. i..i jus wanna let it all out..how?i dont inflict self harm okies.. i don hv sucidal thoughts.. don wanna die so aly.. i fear death.. how? i culdnt realli open up2friends..abt this.. sorry.

Saw is a yucky,yikes movie.

2004-11-30T01:36:00.000-08:00

ytd i woke up at 10+,have my breakfast at 1plus in da aftnn n lunch at 6..haha had a pretty much slacking day. was gonna meet some1 but i was waiting for e whole day.. finally agreed on.. to meet at 7 to watch shutter. yes i intended 2 watch shutter but who noes.. god-damn it haha it was sold out., fullhouse at tm. boo.. den watch this SAW instead.be4 watching it all i noe abt this movie was tt it was bloody & ya e whole show.. 3/4 of it happens in a prehistoric toilet, somewhat of a raw sewage...& etc...etc.

oh, btw i was watching wif a guy friend... knew for awhile but we meet up for da 1st tum ytd. LOL.
k back to da movie. its abt a cruel bian tai insane crazy bth murderer blah blah blah.. haiya i lazy 2 type. i laze 2 summurise it. ainway.. e commercial said tt dont go in wif a full stomach. its realli T-R-U-E. u wil puke. tt's all i can say. haha totally inhumane plot..plus stupid but there;s a few sad moments & ""laughable'" parts. n lots of F-letter words. yes a NC-16 movie.

mm went out wif tis person lei.. alrite alrite lo.. but pretty quiet makes me quite awkward sia. dont like this kind of situation. dont wanna say sho much. ha ha.
n hey tm change anot lei.. soo pretty inside now. so mani things 2 eat.. all newly furnished n renovated.. its been ages since i last went dere. n saw a outdoor park wif x'mas tree????i tink.
mux go there walk walk nxt tum. last nite no chance 2... watch le jiu go hm le. ......zZzZZZZzzzz

bOo... hope i'm stil in time to watch shutter.

2004-11-28T10:44:00.000-08:00

this is my latest blog. deleted da last 1..oso dunno y. "wo kan bu shun yan".anyway it is onl partially done.. still da little bits n pieces..here n dere. but hey im doin this in da middle of da nite.haha i realli cant slp.. the last4 days mite mk my life change 'forever'. haha

well, im doin a part-time job at e sitex exhibition show..for 4days,, being a promoter selling ''wat da hell??'' kodak photo papers.!.lol. wif mao jie.hehe he got me da job. well.. its tiring..packing, un-packing.. smiling.. promoting.. advertising..hurh hurh. n da pay's small fry compared 2 all da exhibitors at da show. n plus no comission. but hey da best thing so far in these4days...is that,
i met a guy. he's da second guy actually, tt i caught my eye with. i mean he's nt mt usual type of guy. but well i can only say tt he is C-U-T-E. he's a 19-yr-old guy, studying interior design at Sp, final yr, last semester n he stays near his sch. haha dont wanna sae.

ok.back 2 da pt. he's promoting this lexmark printers,, da booth in front of ours.didnt realli notice him during da 1st 2 days except tt his hairstyle n dressing amongst all his colleages,(promoters)is quite outstanding. he is nt very tall..in fact he;s quite short,wears a super low black pants.. a pair of high-cut converse sneakers wif a black tee or a shirt. he looks someosort of a 'hip hop" or chic japanese guy on e pretext/keke. has small eyes.. black style style hair,quite long wif so-so complexion. overall he's realli cute..n he's quiye skinny although his tee is quite bagggy. tink he luvs 2 'pao mei yan' wif ppl..haha tt's y i gt 'shocked' by him.keke.we smile,exchange glances..n he brighten up my day cUZ>...................my backbone's breaking btu all da standing all day long. hai..sigh!..but culdnt even hv a chance 2 do anyth now..now tt da show's over. n i aint gt e courage 2 get his no. n when i reall wanna do it... AKA BOO!.HE'S gone. missing. n its time 2 GO HME.haiz. so pathetic. no fate? choi!. hope god let me bum!into him someday..in sg. im praying.hehe. he's 1 cute guy..da cutest i've ever met.

2004-11-28T10:24:00.000-08:00

yeah im free`!

tink outta box?

U belonG to the SKY.....U belong to everyone....

sueyz.sueyz.goddammm it.bleahcxz.

sueyz.sueyz.goddammm it.bleahcxz.

A gentle reminder to shanna. haha

Sayonara boss.... xie xie ni

be a happy kid.

Finally.

whelmed? over? emotional?

im back. hehe s-h-i-t-z my slogan?

y i didnt blg dese few days when i was soo eager 2 blg past lately?

MBAFA ruawkkxzs

fickle minded cold blodded hot headed clumsy

impt hahahaah!

i luv to day-dream...as much as night-'dreams.

i miss...i miss......i miss lotsa of thingsz...

working wores. AGAIN

A cockroach took da lift wif ME.

....

bad working day. dull life Absolutely no satisfation

im listening to Jay's Dao dai.

LisT of things i wanna do*.+.~

working life is bored. daily routine is a NO-No for me

................................................................................

hey~~~ hey~~~ <<

~tired like hell...beat like f*sh~

GeT tangLe up In Me.. skye sweetnam

im stuck.

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tired.hehe.but.over-whelmed-with.emotions

no title

mixture of thoughts mixture me

wat shld i do?

BOO hoo!.what a way to spend a week~~~

i start work le

happy new yr

..happy vday..

...today's Vday...

mMm..today's vday.

where should i start from...

.................. wat a way to spend my 3days...........

busied... bruised knee.. full like shit

mJr Prom nite 31st Dec 2004...

""nightmare"" before new year....

hEY.. bTW

waT a Day...

boxing day...???

this x'mas i gave u my heart..

mMm...penny for ur thoughts?

mMmm wat a week....Im over da mOon & stars

Shutter.....ahhhhhhhhhhh

My x'MaS wiSH-LIst

shutter

its another day

bad mood

today...

im cranky

Saw is a yucky,yikes movie.

hey~ hey~ <<